Obsession

If only i could hold you once, i wish you were my lover for just a moment. Please, i pray... us together. Because i love her so much, my greed keeps growing. I want you for myself, you by yourself. Don't run, don't scape. Time passes and it's been years since i've seen you, so what? All I do is call your name in front of you. I couldn't stand meeting as friends, no. I'm going crazy. No, I grow crazier. The more I meet you... My head gets fuzzy, my heart is confused, I don't know what I'll do either. Eyes that can't lie, the dream last night that was like a nightmare. I love it when you look only at me like this, say ''dear''. It's my obsession, don't curse me. That's my obsession, don't look away. It's my obsession. Don't tell me, please, don't tell me. That's my obsession! I'm sorry... that night wasn't lonely, for some reason there's nothing different to the usual, but the spot i prepared so beautifully for you doesn't look happy. Not even a word, but i'ts okay dear, it doesn't bother me, i'm happy we're together. Don't worry anymore. I will stay by your side. I don't know what to do if you fall asleep so quietly, dear open your eyes. REST   IN    PEACE   for me, amor [?] Smile, please smile, you're prettiest when smiling. Cry? Why am I crying? wipe those tears, and you have no expression, you stiffen. I bring my knees to the floor, and ask you what you did wrong... Endless expectations, by some possibility. I it was all a joke, if someone woke me up... this was all my persistence, if only i lessened my greed, if i knew i'd live like this as a sinner.